I hope you're all doing well! Soulful Sundays is making a comeback today! :)
Hopefully you're ahead of the Christmas shopping game more so than me! I'm pretty excited about the holiday coming up, but definitely not as prepared as I'd like to be. Somehow or another, it just sneaks up on me worse and worse every year! ( Am I alone here?)
In less than two weeks I'll be 30 years old and somehow, I feel like I should have some huge plans in store or conquered some huge milestone. I've come to terms with the fact I'm not married and don't have kids (which is fine by me), and those things never really made me feel like I'd be more up to speed with life than I am now. I've always been pretty focused on making a career happen for myself, but sometimes I do question how life would be different if I'd ever taken a different path. Not out of regret, just curiosity I suppose. Maybe that's the writer in me who pictures myself as a character in a story, contemplating what different scenarios would be like if she went back to chapter 2, 3, etc. and erased the original plot.
But life's not a book you can erase. You do the best you can (hopefully), make mistakes, and grow. If you stick to your intuition, usually, you end up in the right place, even if you went on some crazy out of the way place to get there as I did. Or, maybe all of that doesn't even matter so long as you end up where your heart knows it wants to be.
Deep stuff, I know.
I suppose everyone thinks about these things as they approach such a huge turning age point in life, but none the less, it's a little mind boggling. I've come a long way in life, especially over the last five years. If nothing else, I'm celebrating moving forward, despite the fact that where you move may not always be where you imagined. I'm also interested to see how the next five years go, and hopefully much more will happen for the better, just like it has the last few years.
In case you're wondering about all this turning 30 talk, my birthday's on New Year's Eve, and no, I don't make resolutions. I never have. I remember when I was 13 and my parents would sit down and we'd write out resolutions and then toss them into a huge bonfire like we were making a wish. I don't think I ever kept any single one I ever made. I'm not very good with feeling constricted to decisions. Obviously my inner child was rebelling even still at 13 years old.
Now, I don't make wishes or resolutions. I just do what my intuition says and what my gut feels right about. That's not always easy and some people think I should make more concrete plans, but I've never been that way. I don't believe in writing out your life way ahead of time when much better things could happen if you just followed your instinct and went with life. Work hard, be smart, and listen to what your instincts tell you. When you learn to do that, I've found, that it's when the magic really starts to happen. That's when you figure out who you are and what you want, even if it scares the hell out of you during the process and even if people around you literally think you're crazy until they see the end results (hey Mom, talking to you - thanks for sticking by me no matter what!:)
Go with it, it's pretty awesome at times, even during the crazy and scary parts.
So aside from all this serious talk, I am pretty pumped about Christmas. It's the first year in our new home and who knows? Maybe I'll be somewhere else next year, but for now, I'm just thrilled to be in a happy home with a family who I love and that loves me. So many people just ache for that and I couldn't be more grateful I have it.
I'm not getting anything too crazy gifts-wise this year, and to be honest, I don't even have some elaborate fun recipe planned. But all that doesn't even matter. Just to be at home with a family who loves me is enough and to know that I have a career for myself, along with dreams for that career, a chance to impact people's lives through my job, and be able to do it with amazing co-workers at that.
Life has been so crazy this year but I couldn't imagine the year ending any better. Thanks for being a part of it through it all, no matter what part of the crazy road you entered it upon.
What's been your biggest milestone this year? Anything fun?
I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday! Stay tuned for my next post on some of my latest favorite things!:)
Lots of love!